09. A relief.


And I realised that things have been so different from last year, in every perspective.

too good to be true?



Such uncertainties... glooming around that i start to ponder. Is it temporary?
For the past one year plus, i've been watching the close ones moving ahead while i was strapped to something call envy....well, on somedays its on the verge of jealousy and pich of hatred.
YES, truthful said.



And now what? Comes April, another chapter begins...uh, the blardy feelings still lingers though.
Ashamed. Dissapointment...defeated?
It's as though April never happened...yes im happy. yes im aware. But...


I always tell myslef that what if you never get the chance to be in April?

What if on that verdict day, its 7 and below you see. But hey, i get a 6. Is it just luck? Am i really prepared for April?



As complicated and confuse it sounds...it will eventually fade away. hope