Irony

Saturday, August 30, 2008 |11:57 AM

ramadhan

Past few days, it's been hard. Following the foreign stuffs that i've decided to do for my own good is such a 'burden' to follow...to glance atleast.

.Timetable.

I have this anxious-scared-cb-feeling about the big exam(like who doesnt?! -_-")...which is good...keeps me pump and going. But it only lasted for a moment. And when that anxiety fade away, i lost track of the time and stuffs that i should be doing. Errr...just like right now? Literally... -_-"

Hmmm... fasting-month is coming and I hope that i really get into it.

NO TEMPTATIONS=MORE CONDUSIVE WORK=MORE STUDY TIME=BETTER RESULTS=HAPPY LIKE HAPPINES=NO REGRETS.......and the list goes on.

Time past very fast uh? Yet when you analyse it, a whole lot of things happenned in that 'short' period of time.

Last year's fasting month...hhmm....night study?? preperation for O's...birthday celebrations........UH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DRAMA-MAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahhahaha. ok. not funny.

And now, fasting+working at ice cream shop...err....good luck to me eh. Hah!

And i cant believe that i'm still working in that place....

Dilemma

Speaking of work, the management decided to increase our pay.

so yah... still pathetic.

Uhh!! Yesterday, when i went into the bus, there's this caucasian guy who sat infront of me and he greeted the person who sat infront of him(like woa.....). Then this caucasian guy greeted this idiotic women who just sat beside him and that women gave this, 'what-you-want-you-cikopek-guy-you-get-away-from-me-face'. HAHAHAHAHH.

Singaporeans. -_-" And the caucasion was like..annoyed uh. Who doesnt?!!

The most she could do is to fake a smile! hah.

Okok.....i shall get back to my books. dammm......

Once again i want to thank all those lovelies who has been my safety cushion when everytime i fall back while climbing out from all the idiotic problems in life.

It means alot to me : )

"Selamat menyambut bulan Ramadhan! "

puasa!! jgn tak puasa!! haha. -_____-"

Saturday, August 23, 2008 |12:30 AM

Something hit me last three days and i realised that i need to face it now.

If not, history will repeat itslef..and you'll hear me talking about how MOREEEEEEE b'tchy life is and so ooon.

Well, you know what, just like the sky,

i hope that im not too late to gaze and embrace that last beam of the sun before black clouds hide it and self-proclaimes, 'end of day'. HOPE.

Hmm, from now on...i've decided to update this blog of mine, lesser than usual...hah.

I'll occupy myslef with numbers and figures...pens and pencils...and lots of patience. nyeh.

Maybe i'll blog when there is really a need to or i just feel like it or i have nothing to do...

the most idotic thing that i'll do is to type some random stuffs.....

or to start my post with;

"today, i wake up and......."

"after i bath........"

"omg! i lurp it...."

"nebemind....nebemind...i mish ue. bt i still lurp ue."

"dammm! my pencil broke..so i had....."

"yesterday's trip to the public toilet...."

"hahahha...huh?"
"hi!!!! ok bye. "

-_-"

im contradicting myself.................uh.

Whatever it is. I hope to enjoy after the big exam. ENJOY like rejoy.

ok, i should stop this.

fun moments....awaits.

Saturday, August 16, 2008 |8:15 PM

far east

I'm officially ashamed to say that, i got lost at Orchard.

Since Razzak was not sure where Far East Plaza is, he asked me to follow him to buy 'band shirts' at the place but instead, I led him confidently to Far East SHOPPING CENTRE . hahahahah.

When we reached Far East Shopping Centre im like...

"eerrrr, where's that disturbing yellow colour wordings and logo??!"

So we had to look at every map thats's available randomly along the streets.

Mind you, the weather was hot like hotness.-_-"

Then I remembered that Far East Plaza is located near Royal Plaza on Scotts(carousel!!!!!!!!!!!! *drools*)....jeng3..so i tried to remember where it is.

Follow Shaw...McDs...Adidas...Royal Plaza on Scotts....FAR EAST PLAZA!!!!

The problem was that, Razzak always goes to town by car while i have not explore orchard from point A to point B since donkey years. -_-"

We were relieved to enter Far East as we were sweating like hell.

But our drama didnt end there. We had to look for the shop from top till bottom...left to right and we could'nt find it. Then something holy passed through my head and I realise that theres such thing as 'Shop Directory Board'. -_-"

Found the shop on the board and after another round of searching and intense staring from every tattoo palour that we accidently took the aisle... alas, we reached the blardy shop.

After everything settled, Razzak and I headed to Centrepoint to meet up with my lovely Yanti and HongHong.

Before meeting up with them, me and Razzak had to quench our thirst as it was quite a long walk. And since im craving for Mcspicy....Mcdonalds was our lunch.

Then proceeded to Haagen Dazs where we decided to dine in since my tuition got cancelled.

Razzak had the Royal Monte and Hot Latte while i had the Cookie Crunch and Iced mocha. It was good time spent there...

Yanti and I update alot about our lifes. Honghong was busy though. Miss them like missing.

Anw, i had to force both Yanti and HongHong to take a picture because they said that they look ugly their uniforms..hahhaha...paham benar aku.

Yes, i had to force her.....

she not ready...or isit she's doing some sexy pose

Ok, i cant remember what's with the commotion but i think she still cannot get the fact that she looks ugly in the uniform....ooorr..perhaps she's singing the beijing olympics song...out loudly. hah. joke2. -_-"

The two person whom i extremly miss most during work.

Honghong and Yanti. : )

As you can see, any beautiful or handsome..ehem....person will look ugly in that uni. No offence to anyone. peace. eheh.

So yah, after much swearing...shouting....vulgarities with yanti, me and razzak went home.

My name is Pak Supian while his name is Pak Abdul Ajak.

We're tourist -_-"

........................

Special shout-out to my lovely Masturah Binte Rosman!!!!!

Hey..its been like how many years mas?? Hah.since pri school uh, i remember u with ur specs and u were much more shorter then. if only i can get that picture..damm!haha!

Look where you are now....hot like frying pan!!! hah.

hmmm...august eh??? hah. Happy Birthday yah!!

Just want to say that i truely do not regret having you as friend..wait...i truely blessed to have u as a friend, mas-in.

Althought we may be abit bitchy and sarcastic towards each other...dammm! we know that we looooooooove it. haahhhahha. -_-"

oh, ur laugh, as much as i wish to just strangle u whenever that iriitating laugh come out...i nvr get tired of laughing over it : )

Just remember that there are other's for you to depend on ok. Cut less on the ego or i'll cut it for you. -_-" ok, ive u wish quite a few times..hah. otak blank.

SELAMAT HARI JADI ANAK ROSMAN!!!!! b3 eh...hmmph! hah!

Go out sooooooooooooooon! : )

Wednesday, August 13, 2008 |8:51 PM

Ever felt that sometimes a responsibility given to you is such a pressure?

Especially the bigger ones.

Although you are honored that you are entrusted to do so because of your good abilities and better character... you just felt that,

"i am best being 'normal'.....just like everyone else."

Given the big responsibilty back in secondary school days was a bitter-sweet.

The thought that i am an instrumental to the cca's standard, expectations, welfare...pressure's me all the way.

But the harder part of being a leader is;

convincing your friends...close friends, which is in the same team, to stay with you for support.

P'..if you're reading this, i remembered during the pre-syf performance at some school where we all had to wear school shoes but the 'clique' didnt? I dont know if you notice it but I could not take it anymore and for the first time i was extremly mad with you all and on the verge of shouting on the spot. But, i decided to isolate myslef to take a breather.

Had to admit, my biggest flaw is; Empathy.

But I think I am good at not letting people know what im going through on the moment.

Blessed?

"He has never faltered under the weight of tremendous pressure....has always maintained his composure"

-taken from, school-leaving-testimonial.

Uhuh....to the extent of the day of the SYF results, when everybody was crying and where i had to force my muscle to inch a smile and gave a positive note.

Then this freeking teacher went up to me and asked...

"eh, you not sad uh?? can smile...?"

I was taken aback. And soon..it came pouring out.

Well, I believe that one of things of being a leader is to uphold the team spirit no matter what.

Well you know what...now, i can laugh my heart out thinking about all those stuffs...i think.

But being a just mere member for me is absolutely just great. No more freeking remarks about you behind people's back...or no more 'behind-the-scene-scolding-session' with the 'higher-authorities'... and no more "knn-idiot-cb-i-feel-that-my-effort-is-not-appreciated" moments eheh....and such....bitchy.

And i am defintely not looking forward to this new reponsibility especially that you have something else planned.

On the other hand, i do realise that this mentality has to go because it wont get me far in the working life......wait, FUTURE working life please.

besides than that..i hope that the application will be rejected.

i miss my love ones

Thursday, August 7, 2008 |6:40 PM

help

"Ok, tomorrow is The Day. *deep breath*

Somehow i feel that after the results, things are not going to be the same again. A new chapter i guess.
I'm seriously hoping that i'll pick up that hp and will call. I HOPE."

-Taken from; Wednesday. January 23, 2008

Things have been going on with my life lately, and i cant help it but to read my older post...

"Somehow i feel that after the results, things are not going to be the same again. A new chapter i guess."

Indeed it's a new chapter. Indeed it's not the same again.

For the past around 7 months, i have witnessed people achieving things...happy and elated with their new environments. And i thought to myslef, i should be too right?

But,

When I lean my shoulders to the right for comfort, all i hear are the suppressed anger and dissapointment.

When i tilt my head to the left for guidance, all i see are lingers and frighten

When i arrowed my eyes to the front...im farseeing; blur.confusion.uncertainty.

So, keeping the facade, is to order my legs to turn 180 degrees and stay in that position.

Contradicting.

Things in the past, haunt me, disguising as shadows. They will appear when everything falls into place. But one thing's for sure, they will never go away.

Moving forward is hard....extremly hard.....

Especially when you think you have been doing great all these while...coping. And finally something hit you in the head, and you realise it that....you are not.

You are trying your best to be in control, to start afresh.

But there's always things which belittle your hope and makes you feel like you are swimming against the current...waiting to be drown.

But.......

Is it an excuse isint it?

I'm living in the past again while this little man in my head is grinning all the way as i deprived myslef from the glow of the strend of hope that is still somewhere inside of me.

And i will surely find it...bit by bit.

It's useless to look at the past. Yes, past is vital to where we are now.

Even if it's bitter, you just have to contemplate for a moment and move forward and make use the best of the outcome.

Someone said,

"Any past failures that you have done are the learning experience in life. Learning experience....is to know your mistakes, to take the good; improve on it to avoid the negative again."

I hope this time it really drills into my head, because i dont want to see another of my precious year being wasted while people are progressing.

Wish me luck. : )

Monday, August 4, 2008 |4:53 PM

fire works

On saturday, went out pezah, fathin and haziq. Arep was missing in action because he went to johor. Anw, after much delay, we all headed to bugis. Our first stop was 'Tong-Seng', since our stomach were growling violently, serious. And as usual, i wanted to eat the 'chicken mushroom noodle' but instead i wrongly ordered the 'chicken minced noodle'. To make it all more irritating, I only realised it when I was about to eat... plus that blardy nyonya who sent the wrong order, gotten all paiseh(i suppose), that she threw tantrum at other innocent customers. hah! what a service. hmmmm, maybe i should try doing that once at work. hah!

We were actually rushing to catch the entire National Day preview...plus wanted to get gooooood seat; yes must be kiasu abit eh...because the last time we went, we had to stand about an hr plus at the crowded bridge. So yup, that sunday after lunch we went to topman and it was already 5 plus, so we decided to just slow down because the place would already be crowded by then -_-" Topman had big sale. Haziq boght 3 shirts since he has a discount(pantat eh...) while i just bought 1.

As Haziq was still feeling richy, we stopped over at Raffles's River Island. TEMPTING SIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Their shoes are blaaardy awesome. Its those formal yet casual type ones...uh! nvm.next time...eheh. Haziq bought a wallet. From then, we walked to Marina...and there were several uniform gaurds. Reached Marina..... squeeze there and squeeze here...but still everywhere was packed. So out of desperation and tiredness, haziq just sat on the concrete floor and soon we just gave up and sat too. The view from where we sat was spectacular...all we could see werethe different types of...........asses. Yes, not the performance but asses. Heck! We were tired after all. hah.

Since we cant see a thing, we decided to tell hilarious jokes and just have a great laugh. Oh, there's this family who were beside us, came with 3 foldable chairs....yes, semangat eh. During the show, there's several interval of fireworks which made people excited and shouted in euphoria for only like 10 secs -_-" And when soon, the finale fireworks came...some people behave VERY weirdly. Yes it was climax...like literally...with all the screaming....err.noo, its more to moaning. -_-" DISTURBING.

After the show, headed to the 'park' outside Esplanade and celebrated Fathin's Birthday.

Happy Birthday Fathin!!!!!!!!!!!!! U are my sunshine, my only sunshine...u make me happy and.....errrr...lalalala : )))) May all your wishes and dreams come true yah. Hope that our frienship will stay as long as possible. Andand...you always brighten up people's day with your smile and your exuberant personality, fathin. I am truely to be friend. : )

We just relaxed and untwined. Then all of a sudden, this women fell into the pool. HAHHAHAHAH. paiseh sia..wanted to take a picture but..errr..am i too kind. -_-" After an hour or two, we all headed home.

On the way home..saw sabrina. hah. sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! peacepeace : )

"Serenity overlooks disturbia"

Then yesterday, me, fizah and haziq went for a study session at e!hub. Since cbtl's 'good seats' were taken, we decided to just study at nebo. It is a cool place uh. Although the radio was blasting out loud and its not soo condusive for those who prefers to study in tranquility, the place is great for a hangout session....err i think. : )

I had a good laugh watching MTV Asia Award's....expecially the the winner of the country S and M. The artiste's speech was....waaaaaaah. Proud lah sia. -_-"

Uh, i wonder why....everytime when MTV Asia is held, there's alot of artiste that won, did not attend the event...compare to the other MTV Europe or the main MTV. eheh....think lah eh.

Idiot. Singfest. -_-"